bigted

i love this bee gees sample on snoop's "ups & downs", may robin gibb rest in peace:

well the way i see it a lot of the true artists of hip hop history are slowing down their output or not putting out anything anymore, most of what's coming out now is by all the garbage rappers that've been torn apart many times on this board, it's like hip hop's seen better days, quite depressing when you think about it, like kool moe dee said in the mc that only real hip hop junkies like us actually know that there's some on the underground level are doing it, the lil' girls that buy albums don't listen to lyrics, it's all crappy club music, only us hip hop nerds check for lyrics, lol, if you judge by what's on the masses hip hop is dead...

well kel's in a better position than i'm in and the million of us trying to make it in the game are still, i've been rapping for 12 years and i never met and did songs with the legendary JJFP and countless other legends that we all love so much

damn i'm starting work this week so i probably won't be able to go, why can't they come back to seaside like when mib2 came out, that was when i was in 11th grade and i was in school that day btw 'cause i had exams, haha

I wrote this right after I bought the Lost and Found CD 7 years ago, the happiest moment of my life so far!! With the hype around MIB3 I'm hoping for some more great memories, I recorded a lil' bit of this with some shout outs to the JJFP.com fam here, if I didn't shout ya out blame it on the head not the heart, I got love for y'all! You could listen and peep the lyrics right here: http://chirb.it/JgHpDA “Big Ted's JJFP Anthem For Lost and Found” (JJFP 1985-2005 and beyond) Hook(Big Ted Chantin'): Even when I get signed JJFP will still be the greatest of all time Nothing will ever change my mind 'Cause if it wasn't for them my hip-hop knowledge would be blind Unique individuals continually shine Black/white/rich/poor peeps all relate to their vibe Their creativity represent the ways of life Verse One: Now in this year of 2005 Once again Jazzy Jeff's on the wheels and The Fresh Prince is on the mic To burn all competitors since they're the top duo of all time “Y'all know” what happens when Jeff's cuts back up The Prince's rhymes It's a moment of monogomy like “Summertime” But let's go back to year 1985 Which was the 1st year of my life And the moment when these two forces combined Then a year later in '86 The release of “Girls Ain't Nothin' But Trouble” would hit The b-boy circles and block parties formed a moment of bliss They'd rock the house as the freshest Then in '88 they released a classic disc “He's The DJ, I'm The Rapper” They'd reign as hip-hop masters Winnin' the 1st grammy in the music's history for “Parents Just Don't Understand” So all those hip-hop non-believers were slammed 'Cause like FP said: “I told my mother I could never make a wack jam” And the duo took even further command When Quincy Jones offered them a plan Of turnin' their hip-hop dominance into a TV show that was seen across the lands Starting in '90, “The Fresh Prince Of Bel-Air” Took hip-hop to a place that nobody else could compare Of sayin' they did 'cause this cross-over of hip-hop opened a lot of doors for hip-hop artists Now the industry's a billion-dollar industry in the stock market With mcs on the red carpet [Repeat Hook] Verse Two: “And In This Corner” they vetoed fake crews like the supreme court Cuttin' no slack in the music There was haters talkin' foolish Sayin' that their style was soft since other rappers started rhymin' about bustin' bullets Too many started going on that gangsta tip talkin' stupid So they'd set 'em straight on “Code Red” Showin' those haters they never lost their street sense Yet they still kept the music positive A lil' “Somethin' Like Dis” would remind that they never forgot about their “Homebase” Even though you'd see them on your TVs on Monday And now it's actually shown everyday But anyways we'd then see FP doin' blockbuster classic movies like “Bad Boys” and “Independance Day” While Jazzy Jeff was on the low still rockin' crowds with turntable displays It still wasn't the same feelin' until they decided to concentrate workin' on “Big Willie Style” Which would be released in '97 That's when I started to get into their music I only knew them from watchin' them on my TV set when I was 10 I didn't know that the Fresh Prince was a lyricist until I heard “Just Crusin'” And a year later I was blown away when I heard the transformer scratches from Jazzy Jeff When I bought their “Greatest Hits” We've been “So Fresh” throughout this “Willenium” [Repeat Hook] Verse Two: They worked together on 7 of the 8 Fresh Prince discs Up to this point, even though FP has been “Born To Reign” The diehearts like myself that he wasn't gonna be supreme without Jeff's scratches So now once again it's about to happen Don't sleep on Jeff 'cause he got his “A Touch Of Jazz” label established We're preparing for “The Return Of The Magnificent” turntable assassin Just when everyone has thought Fresh Prince was gonna just stay acting The critics will see the sustaining passion Once again they'll be lost 'cause Philly's finest has found the interaction To bring us more anthems The critics will once again be sayin' “I Wish I Made That” Who knows what the future holds for them The White House might be the future home of Fresh Prince And they'll be a party thrown by “The Magnificent” with fellow hip-hop heads in attendance This might sound a bit of a stretch Or a “shadow dream” for some But who would've thought that 2 kids from West Philly Would be having 2 decades of longevity So anythin' that comes their way from this point on as “potnas”, they'll always stay “Numero Uno” on the scene Their “Love For The Game” and fighting through “The Rain” is an inspiration for you and me “Tell Me Why” you'd doubt their legacy [Repeat Hook]

word, tommorrow's my mama's birthday and she's sad that one of her favorite singers died, rest in peace

hell yeah this would be perfect timing for me there's so much crap going in my life lately, i'd do anything in the world if i could see them perform live

it's true that people don't want albums, the state of hip hop and the music industry is very depressing, there's no classic albums out anymore, i think true artists should make albums regardless to how many people care, it's all about doing it for the true fans and keeping integrity as an artist, kel's a very intelligent brother, if he turns his facebook popsts into concepts for songs he could put out a classic album easily....

i wrote a new song just now about how i'm not losing hope in my life, it's called "don't lose hope", i feel more encouraged: Don't Lose Hope 2012 May 16 don't lose hope gotta look beyond the smoke there won't be time to be broke there's ways for us to cope don't lose hope even when we don't believe we can still have dreams the power of god is in teddy you'll want to get with me there's not much to say really except that we'll be able to cope just don't lose hope i see the potential when you can't maybe i'm too much of a dreamer to understand but my vision is towards the ultimate plan finding myself brings on the right command maturity so i could be your man need be the one to provide just can't be bored this time i won't be ignored off this rhyme you'll feel the hunger of my life then you'll wanna be at my side one day you'll be my wife once we make it through these hard times this is why i come hard on the mic i know i don't feel like i'll live a long life even when people see i do things right that's why i'm making the most of my time nothing is a given that's why i'm gonna remain spitting i'm not worried over competition, when i already defeated them like 50 Cent there's been "many men" that've wished for death i choose to uplift and make this time well spent even if i never have kids, the next generation i could still influence like krs i'm the teacha, edutainment through speakers competition ain't my equal, war mentality sequel 2003 was the graduation, 2013 is the meditation the aftermath of 2012 that we're facing the possible last days but i'm confidant that god's children will make it no matter what i'm thankful for everyday i've lived i don't walk around anymore in regrets no moment was wasted, this is the legend in the making a top influence in future lyricism my moves are major through the ways of living teddy's trying to remain at peace until the day i'm resting eternally every night before i go to sleep i'm able to find some sort of peace i feel blessed to have opportunities that my parents could never dream of when they were as young as me we're blessed to have technology through typing away on these keys i'm displaying my lyrical poetry and the love is being felt from overseas i have fans in uk, australia, and germany through my computer i spread love instead of being an internet thug we all have a choice to use our voice i realise i'm never gonna be alone since jesus christ is always in my home i feel uplifted when i express finding vision through religion christ died so i could be living and i stand on that ultimate message so any trouble faced could be ressurected there's miracles found in every direction every time i see papa smile it's a miracle again he's my life long best friend through this dementia he'll be rehabilitated i always tell him french "papa je t'aime" this type of love won't end i'm confidant he'll be home with me and mama again i'm always reminded how i could've died in march 2007 but here i am in 2012 still living at 27 only time will tell how long i'll be alive on earth but i'll always be eternally alive the path has been paved for my soul to be saved god helps write every song i create just like papa taught me how to meditate i stand up to keep up the pace i made a promise to never drink or smoke i'm already at a high without sniffing coke or smoking dope like bbd just show me the way so i could always have hope

well i feel more relaxed right now after i watched lion king dvd and went to take a walk on the boardwalk and catching up with one of my friends that i work with at the beach, he's an older guy named frank that's sorta become like a father figure to me lately since my father got sick, we had such a great man to man chat for a whole hour about life in general, god works in mysterious ways, i notice how my mother always seems to have mother figures in her life in older women ever since my grandmother died 11 years ago, and my father had a lot of women in haiti raise him when his mother died when his mother died when he was a baby, you're right life ain't so bad but sometimes there's those dark periods that we go through that tests us, i'm trying to take life as it comes no matter what happens...

you know, i just couldn't sleep too well last night because i was thinking about how hurt my mama feels about my papa not being home, the house has an empty space, people think its easy for us but it's not, it's been some of the worst time of life for us 'cause we had such a happy home for all those years, her birthday and wedding anniversary is in 2 days and she ain't happy, she was having a conversation on the home phone with her friend that she hasn't talked to since i worked with her at kmart 8 years ago at the same time me and krystle talked on my cell, more on me and krystle in a moment but their conversation didn't go over too well....her friend was asking her too many personal questions and made some cold remarks about how my mama should start dating other men since my papa will never come home again, and she even talked about me in a negtive way, in other words her friend doesn't seem that cool anymore.... -now as far as me and krystle, well i poured my heart to her again on the phone and i performed some of that song and she told me that she only wants to remain friends with me for now, well as i think about it emotionally with everything going on that might be best 'cause i don't know if being in a serious relationship is such a good thing right now since i'm under a lot of pressure at the moment, i'm still remaining hopeful though that through a better time that she'll change her mind and give me a chance, i'm gonna swallow my pride and remain her friend 'cause good friends are hard to find and i want her to be in my life... lately i've been thinking a lot about how i'm gonna end up when i get older i see myself through papa, on the news they said the obama administrations working on finding a cure for alzheimers and dementia beacuse they'll be 10 million people with it in 2025, you could get it in your 40s, i turn 40 in 2025, i already had a nervous breakdown 5 years ago and i take medicine and with all this pressure lately i don't know how much longer i'll hold up in the long run, sometimes lately i've been thinking like 2Pac that I have a feeling that I'm not gonna live a long life and I've been making more songs than ever, it's just weird feeling I have...if it wasn't for how strong my mama and a few close people in my life i probably would think of doing something drastic, i understand these days better why people commit suicide, it's like that keith sweat, gerald levert and johhny gill song"love hurts" and nas said "life's a bitch"....well i hope that today is less stressful for me and my mama but i can't lie it's hard for us, but like papa said to us the other day he misses being home too but life goes on, there's time i think back to how i wish i could be a kid again 'cause growing up was just so much fun, if i had a time machine i would go back to when we first moved to seaside in '94 and went to the theatre and watched the lion king for the first time and i would stay in that moment forever, maybe tht's what heaven will be like, there's too much pressure being older, with the way life's going these days as well with all this violence and sickness at 27 i don't know if i'm coming or going....well i got it all off my head for now, maybe i'll turn these thoughts into a new song and then i'll go get breakfast and lie down for a while and maybe put the lion king dvd on to keep my sanity going, i really don't wanna have another nervous breakdown again....

This reflects thoughts of how I feel today as well, funny how these 2006 posts make more sense in 2012, Game and LL are 2 of the realest in hip hop, it takes a real person to admit that life ain't perfect but we're still gonna deal with it, "Doctor's Advocate" and "14 Shots To The Dome" are underrated classics: ""While some may think that the West Coast emcee's life has been set since dropping his multi-platinum debut The Documentary, Game set the record straight and revealed that he has been significantly affected by all of the drama that he has faced in recent months. "I was, six months ago, at a point of my life where I felt like I knew how it felt for a person to want to commit suicide. Life was just that bad," said the Compton rapper. "I felt like I didn't get the props that I deserved, and that started f*cking with me. And when you hear this album, you'll hear the conviction and the pain." He also outlined "...sitting in a closet by himself with f*cking tears running down my face, trying to figure out, how did I go from being one of the best rappers in the world and the most loved to being one of the most hated?"-Game, now really I started contemplating whether it was even worth to even write songs anymore too 'cause I really started having doubts whether I'd ever make it but really it don't matter what others think, it only matters what I feel, as long as I write what I feel it's all good and I could help touch one soul and I'll be happy, really it felt good yesterday knowing that I finished in the top 33 in the poetry contest I entered out of thousands that entered, Game probably feels the same way too, he just put it out all out there on his new album, I feel his pain, it's good to know he's getting some credability for what he's doing "I was standing in the shower naked-both inside and out. I let the water flow all over my body, The tears washed down my face along with the water. I hadn't really cried since I was a kid. But on this day, I made up for it. I was crying for the woman I treated like a dog, crying for the children I had abandoned, crying for my life, which I was just throwing away. And crying because I felt like I had been betrayed on every level. I had a broken heart..I was pouring my soul into my next album, 14 Shots To The Dome."- LL Cool J, really I was going around broken hearted too, I know I have to pick up the pieces like he did and just keep it moving, people might diss 14 Shots To The Dome but you really felt his pain on that disc, it's actually understandable to see he was going through a tough time when he was recording, songs like "Crossroads" and "All We Got Left Is A Beat" was really him putting out his rage, I'm gonna put the fuel into my song writing, lock myself up in a room and just write my ass off again is what I need to do the next time I feel down Really those laid back chilled songs are cool but sometimes I get "So Sick" of love songs like Ne-Yo and I need something agressive like Ice Cube, DMX, early LL, and FP on "Lost and Found"-December 3, 2006, Big Ted

When it's a rainy day I sorta take time out to reflect back on my life and going through old posts in this thread makes me reminisce, Krystle's my friend that I was talking about then that I still wanna try to be with, funny how this 2006 post rings more timeless after that great conversation we had last night, I realised that I still love her through it all: "Love could be friendship too, if you really want to be friends with her so badly that means there are feelings still there, really what I'd do though is give her space and see if you really still want to be there for her at all that means you do love her, that's how I realised that I love Krystle still, I tried to distant myself from her for awhile and I see if the feelings would still be there or not, of course I also gave her space 'cause she got a man, we never went out but the feelings I have for her are just stronger than anyone I was with before her and really I haven't been able to go out with anyone after I met her 'cause nobody else I met since her made me feel the way I felt about her and I basically missed talking to her and be around her, I never met a girl that made me feel the way I feel about her, she's such a great person I realised I need her in my life one way or another, now I was a lil' nervous if she's changed in between the last time we talked over 1 year and a half 'cause a lot of those I used to be cool with became jerks, really I feel bad that I waited that long, so my best suggestion would be a couple months at the most if you still want to be there for her let her know, I made a mistake, I should've only waited only a couple months to check up on Krystle, it was my damn ego tripping on me 'cause really a day never went by that I never wanted to talk to her but I get so used to rejection I thought she was gonna forget about me, she actually thought I forgot about her too 'cause of how other friends treated her lately too, really the lesson that's been learned is that you gotta be open minded and treat each person as an individual,can't let how others treat you effect how you treat others, if my ego kept up I could've lost a great friend in my life that I really care a lot for, that Boyz II Men lyric says it all, "never let a broken heart take a chance for love away" I thank god she's still a nice person and really we still click real well even after that time apart, right now we're there for each other as friends, that's up to her basically if she loves me more or she loves her man more, I ain't putting no pressure on her at all, but right now it don't feel right for me to be with anyone else, I made another mistake trying to force myself on other girls last summer but I found out they weren't that nice, really you can't force love, you really gotta be yourself and if people respect you they respect you, I'm patient till the right time comes,it's gonna take a hell of a woman to make me forget about her that's for sure, Krystle got my heart, if she ever gave me a chance I'd make sure that I treat her right... Now as far as thwe other girl, well really I'd just try to be friends with her and that's it since she got a man already, be patient and respectful, good luck with everything, you're in my thoughts dawg"-December 23, 2006, Big Ted

yeah it's a small world, it's like the lion king how we're all connected with the circle of life

that's nice to hear things are going good for you turntable, yeah i can't wait until summer, working at the beach here in seaside is gonna take my mind off the dramas of my life, you know i've been going over my songs this morning and there was this one song i wrote a couple months back that i was originally planning on sharing with my friend around her birthday but then there was all this stuff that's been happening in between that i never got the chance to share it so i'm gonna perform for her when we talk next time or record it if my computer mic ever works again, lol, my computer is a trip sometimes, anyway this song gets out all the feelngs that i have for her over the years, i sat down one rainy afternoon and all these thoughts came to me reflecting over our 10 year friendship, ironically as i'm typing this message it's pouring outside, rain is such a spiritual thing, it's all heaven sent, god don't make mistakes, papa always tells me that as well, he's probably looking out the window at the rehab and thinking about me... anyway she's been more than a friend to me 'cause i noticed how most friends can't be trusted but i feel like i could tell her anything, anyway i'm about to go have a snack now and put some music on, probably fp's "the rain" is what i'll play first since it's fitting for now, have a good day on this rainy day, enjoy the song, peace: all these ideas 3*2*12 a lot of the ideas in my head that just keep on running since i feel this is more than something temporary when i see them keep coming even my mama thinks i'm crazy sometimes from the way i've been talking but there's a reason for the constant thoughts on my mind and this is bigger than just another rhyme i'm trying to bring this passion to life a long lost feeling has been revived since you've been back into my life and baby you know i'm feeling this vibe this is more of the worry free type that's right intellectual girl, i wanna make love to your mind since you've got all the qualities that i like so i gotta come with the poetry to blow your mind my goal is for you to rank me as your #1 guy i'm working my way up the depth charts towards your heart when i feel your spirit i'm never alone so i don't want this feeling to ever depart in other words i want us to be never apart this ain't about chasing after accolades and awards since i feel with you around i have so much more i ain't gonna waste time chasin' down the whores to keep it a lil' more blunt i ain't just tryin' to hump i wouldn't have tried so long if these feelings of mine weren't "so strong" the moment you give my love a try you'll realise you can't go wrong chorus: all of the ideas in my head tell me we should be more than friends it's getting harder to fight off these feelings since your love is what i'm needing baby i wanna put an end to this fronting and get right to discussing ways that we get to some loving that'll last longer than just a moment since i feel this love don't have a limit baby you gotta know i ain't fronting that's right baby i ain't fronting with all these thoughts in my head so let's be more than just friends and let's get on to some loving -as i bring on another verse i know you're tired of being treated like dirt as much as i am for sure since over the years we've both felt hurt that's another reason why we should be together a decade of friendship is what i've treasured i think we've done the right thing to be friends before lovers 'cause those that've rushed have a lot of pain endured i've read a lot of biographies from favorite entertainers and mcs and i also have seen a lot of drama go on in my own family even my papa admitted he made some mistakes growing up in haiti with you i feel like i could open up to all of these realities conversations with you is like my release therapy i really respect that you're such a strong lady the bond that me and you share is a rarity if i try to be with someone else i know i ain't gonna be that happy during the moments we lost contact there were times that were empty and as i've been reflecting on things lately my discussions with god put it in perspective more greatly that you've been truly the one meant for me but i guess it's up to god to reveal your feelings for me 'cause there's moments where we've both been busy it seems like being caught in the middle of love and life has intervened if you get on a computer you could google that song by JJFP to see what i mean all the ways of "love and hip hop" has brought this passion out steadily only time will be the deciding factor that whether we're meant to be more than just being at terms that're friendly and moving towards being lovers that're never ending bottomline stands that i always wanna be around when the love and peace is what's truly found so i have to supply up the realest sound i feel if we're able to link up being deep thinkers we'll work the kinks out to inspire others since we'll be known as an inspiration for how love should go no matter what happens i'll always love you so repeat chorus til end

yesterday turned out to be one of the most inspiring days i've had in a long time, when i got to see my papa yesterday at the rehab center it felt like nothing was wrong with him mentally and he seemed to be back to his calm self, we had such a great conversation during our visit and i got so much advice from him about all the things that've been bothering me, it felt like god was talking to me through him i was so moved, and then last night after i got finished eating dinner i was able to have a great conversation with my friend and i was able to tell her all the things i've been wanting to say to her, it felt like a weight was lifted off of me, it feels like my prayers are being answered, never give up

Hey Turntable how you been homie? Haven't seen you on the board in awhile, how's life been treating you?

montell jordan "one last chance", i feel like that all i need is one chance to prove to this girl that i've been friends with for about 10 years that we could take it to the next level...

Yeah you're right Tim, things happen for a reason but there's somethings we can't explain, like i was mentioning to aj on facebook today these days i try not to think too far ahead at once and take life as it comes because if i worry too much about the big picture i'll be down in the dumps, time heals all wounds, it's up to her if she wants to be with you aj, she knows how you feel so there's no more you could do, bottomline is that you gotta respect her decision no matter what she ultimately decides if you truely love her, just take it one day at a time and see what happens, maybe one day there might be somebody else that comes along that you might get feelings for as well and you'll know how to handle that one better, we just never know what life's gonna bring us next, like the old saying goes one door closes another one opens... to keep it real there might be times where i feel that i might've wasted time trying to go out with this girl for 10 years but i try to look at it as a positive thing as something that i've learned from and i try to come to grip that if nothing ever comes from this relationship since it's looking more by the day that she don't have much feelings for me that i thought she'd have by now at least i could say that it made me stronger for other relationships in my future and for that reason i'm thankful and i love the fact that i met her...

I wanted to share this poem I made about my mama "Dear Mama 2012" on Valentine's Day and I recorded it especially for mother's day, hope y'all enjoy: http://chirb.it/zd9gG4

' Last night I took a 14 hour flight to Sydney Australia from LA embarking on PEs 80th tour in 25 years. I landed I got 65 texts with the news. Adam and theBoys put us on our first tour 25 years and 79 tours ago. They were essential to our beginning, middle and today. Adam especially was unbelievable in our support from then till now even allowing me to speech induct them into the Rock hall of fame. I consider my self a strong man and my father says be prepared to lose many on your post 50 path of life. Still Im a bit teary eyed leaving this plane R.I.P Adam Aka MCA' Chuck D

Yeah I've been checking the board a lot lately too even when I ain't posting but there's been so much going on with me emotionally that I haven't really thought much about the state of hip hop as I used to since I've been trying to find myself through everything... It's nice that you made this post here AJ, I pray that you find peace no matter what happens with that marriage, i appreciated our chat on facebook today as well, it'd be nice if we get this board popping like back in the day and get more interaction here again 'cause being on this board has been therapy for me over the years and a piece of me has been missing since there hasn't been much buzz on fresh prince and hip hop to me like years ago... I made a post on my facebook page the other day about how I find out my papa doesn't have cancer in his lungs or his body so I figured I'd let the JJFP.com fam know too, he's still over at the rehab center getting his dementia treated, he's in good spirits still about everything so that's a positive thing... May 18th is my mama's birthday and the 20th anniversary that she's been married with my papa and it's a lil' hard on her knowing that papa ain't home to celebrate with us so I've been trying my hardest to keep her with positive spirits, been doing a lot of things with her and for her, I realise how strong she's been throughout this dark time for us, I wrote a special poem on Valentine's Day and recorded it recently called "Dear Mama 2012" that I'm going to share with her tomorrow... Another matter that's been weighing on me has been this friendship that I've had with this girl I knew for about 10 years now, I always wanted to take our relationship to the next level to be more than just friends but for some reason recently it seems like I get along better with her sister than her, it seems like she's been too busy for me but her sister seems to be more kind towards me and more conforting for me since my papa's been sick, it's like a sign from god that maybe I should reconsider who I should try to be with since this trying time has taught me a lot, like AJ mentioned to me today I should be patient before I make a move I regret, I'm gonna continue to feel out the situation and see where my heart leads me... Like I stated before I've been more driven than ever to write lyrics than ever before, I feel like god's been doing all these things in my life to build up my character, I feel a lot of material coming to me, I want to try to inspire as many people as possible....

yeah kel's way too dope of an mc to just put out downloads, he needs to put out an album

good job tim!