thank you all.... i really need this support i don't get any around home because we are all going through the same thing... my brother has cryed everyday and everynight hes having a break down... my mom can't handle seeing us cry she had a rough childhood and doesn't want to see us like this... i can't handle this anymore... my counsiler keep telling me to hold on things will get better.. but this all began when i was about 6 and now i can't remember anything befor that.... so everythign in my mind is bad.. Everyonce in a while i freak out out of nowhere because of all the stress... and i can't let my counsiler know everythign that goes on cause hes so close to putting me in the hospital for recovery of all this stuff... so thank you all of you you don't know how good it feels to see that people care..!!