3cookies Posted September 6, 2004 Report Share Posted September 6, 2004 (edited) [font="Arial"][color=blue][b]ChaSn4eVa[/b] Growin like a blister, false love attackin my heart/ fittin like a puzzle, but never real from the start// makin false promises and never fulfilliN/ my simplest of needs, but naw, u wanna keep chilliN// spinnin my world in a bit of a whilrwind ~n~ / so high on a cloud, lovin tha signals u been sendin// changing my visions, my dreams and my goals/ gave u my all, that only God knows// you look in my eyes/ telling your lies // always down on ur knees, cryiN / beggiN & pleadiN // hustl'N a slick move>>baby u REAL bold// like a sucker i believed u, junk got funky & old/// despite alla our troubles / i was living inna visible bubble// could see no wrong, with my eternal "twin flame"/ unravelling anew side, he started tossing his blame// no shame in my game, I shedded a many a tears/ willing to sacrifice tha rest of my years// just to be an important part of ya life/ my cup over~floweth with nothing but strife// you see, my love isn't based on condition/ I need a real man, who honours God's love thru tradition// never putting me last on his agenda or day/ or walk away with me beggin, "baby please won't you stay"// I need u by my side,...yet I forgave again and again/ enduring all the lying and cheatiN// my heart took a helluVa damn beatiN// the cycle just keeps repeatiN.../// until i could see no end/ a love rollercoaster that would rapidly send// my soul into tha deepest black pit with muddy sides/ until i finally learned that i had to deside// is this what I see in my future "forever" ? / is this the love God created that no man should sever?// naw gurl, ... this cat just aint for you/ you cant give up on eternal love, thas holds "true"// Stand up on your feet/ its tyme 4 u to defeat// the negative influences, tryna hold u down/ don't fall under, i gotta stand my ground// the pain will be there, but ill come thru/ refocus on my future, starting anew// dont you dare to despair/ God will never takes away something he can repair// my spiritual intuition calmed tears drizzling about my face/ God will never restore something he can always REPLACE // oh how badly i wanted your love, but have given up the fight/ "I bless this man Lord, whom I loved with all my might, // my body, my mind, my heart and my soul/ still flowed lovingly as his aora grew ugly, nasty and cold// Accusing me of his own actions, wrongdoings and weakness/ making my heart cry, degrading behaviour showed his meakness// now I smile as God knows my faithful heart. He's my guide and my witness/// women come a dime a dozen, but i fall within an elite few/ honoring the entire essence of my being, reserved only for you// as I prayed at the alter, on my knees at the pew/// Life is full of lessons, experiences and downfalls/ in which we all gain wisdom and knowledge intertwined within it all// the pains my lost love has inflicted upon me / will linger for years 2 come, until i grow to 'be' and ultimately 'see' // the woman God molds; my spiritual realm; a promised future vision/ of love, peace and happiness,...awaiting GOD's provision // Im not embarassed to have lost out on 'love'/ cause it would have lasted; if a blessing descending from above// [b]"G"[/b]oodbye my sweet, maybe next lifetyme we will be 2getha.../ finding ourselves intertwined once again...with one anotha...// My journey now begins and I'm [b]"ChaSn4eVa[/b]"/// peace, 3cookies[/color][/font] Edited September 7, 2004 by 3cookies Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mfuqua23 Posted September 7, 2004 Report Share Posted September 7, 2004 Is this a 1st post by 3cookies in Numero Uno? Quite long. Just write it how it feels. I did similar wit "4ever Hated". It'z all good I think. Just let go expression. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
3cookies Posted September 7, 2004 Author Report Share Posted September 7, 2004 [font="Arial"][color=blue]Naw bro..it aint my first post in numero uno...i just been MIA for a good minute or 2...but basically, its a F*ck OFF poem that I wrote to my x telling him to kiss my @$$... sorry 4 being so brutally direct,...but well...i love ya stanka. :thumb: im sure u understand...but Chasing Forever IS my inspiration...and believe it or not...i just started listening to this song again after a coupla YEARS, and you would NOT believe just how quickly my entire being feels turned around & uplifted after having gone thru my own personal "rain".... This song just touches my heart in such an undescribably (<sp?) incredible way... peace, 3cookies [/color][/font] Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mfuqua23 Posted September 7, 2004 Report Share Posted September 7, 2004 Stanka? Am I missing something here? Yeah I understand. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jazzy Julie Posted September 7, 2004 Report Share Posted September 7, 2004 thats great, sounds like its directly from your heart, i bet you feel better for wrtting that too. You tell him girl!!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Prince Posted September 7, 2004 Report Share Posted September 7, 2004 I feel the emotion... Tied into every line... :thumb: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
3cookies Posted September 7, 2004 Author Report Share Posted September 7, 2004 (edited) [font="Arial"][color=blue]My badd...u dont know me, so u are missing something here. I'm pretty much the 'eldest' oldsKooL chik on the board... ,... and one of the original posters, and everybody (im sure),...knows that when I say 'stanka',...i mean no offense...its just a way I express my 'love' to ppl that i care 4,...in a sisterly/brotherly manner...along the category with a few other words,... sweetie babydoll 'stanka' cutie...etc hopefully it's not offensive 2 ppl...aint that right princy~wincy? lol :thumb: Like with tim's name...i call him timbo or timboat. Don't ask me where these names come from tho...haha and Julie & Prince...my emotions and anger were insync with my thoughts & realization when I wrote that ... peace, 3cookies[/color][/font] Edited September 7, 2004 by 3cookies Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Prince Posted September 7, 2004 Report Share Posted September 7, 2004 [quote=3cookies,Sep 7 2004, 08:59 PM]hopefully it's not offensive 2 ppl...aint that right princy~wincy?[/quote] :bang: :bang: No... That isn't... Offensive... At... All... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jazzy Julie Posted September 7, 2004 Report Share Posted September 7, 2004 lol princey wincey and Timboat :roll: I notice u call me miss Julie a lot too, i like that name so u are very welcome to call me that lol. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bigted Posted September 9, 2004 Report Share Posted September 9, 2004 I liked the poem, I can feel the emotion! :thumb: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mfuqua23 Posted September 9, 2004 Report Share Posted September 9, 2004 Now outta all the ones U listed, 'stanka' is the only one i didn't get. Does it have something 2 do wit Outkast's Stankonia or whatever. seems so. if not, that';z quite creative... and yet somehow disturbing Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
3cookies Posted September 9, 2004 Author Report Share Posted September 9, 2004 [font="Arial"][color=blue]naa... 'stanka' is just my word,...an affectionate way of saying cutie or baby... lol nevermind the explanation...but its all good tho... :thumb: peace, 3cookies [/color][/font] Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mfuqua23 Posted September 10, 2004 Report Share Posted September 10, 2004 cutie? U haven't seen me have U? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Prince Posted September 10, 2004 Report Share Posted September 10, 2004 [quote=mfuqua23,Sep 10 2004, 08:08 PM]cutie? U haven't seen me have U?[/quote] Cookies has names for everyone haha. She means well, and it's good to have someone so positive posting among us I think. :thumb: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mfuqua23 Posted September 10, 2004 Report Share Posted September 10, 2004 Yeah. True. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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