my most personal song i ever written "remaining on the grind"

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hey JJFP.com fam, out of all my songs I really feel that I dug deep with this one, now i've been dealing with my mental illness of bipolar since march of 2007 right around the time i was hospitalised for a staph infection, then 5 years later in 2012 my father was diagnosed with dementia and was put away in a nursing home, i lost my job working at the beach in seaside heights went back to the hospital in summer of 2012 after a nervous breakdown, then hurricane sandy in fall of 12 and me and my mom moved to whiting nj so needless to say i've been through some dark moments over the last decade but through it all i've kept a peace of mind... Now things have been getting better for me since, i graduated my online college course in june, i'm doing online gigs, reconnected with some high school friends, and i put out my first album on youtube last winter of 2015, search "GM3485 Starting Over Album" on youtube and you'll find it there, this song along with other songs i'm currently writing will be on my second album "open book" digging deep with life issues going on in society today, i'm working on getting a new laptop so that the recordings will be more crystal clear, now i know that this forum doesn't get as much recognition as it did back when "lost & found" was out but i've stayed loyal and i'm hoping the loyalty pays off, if will or jeff come to the board i'd appreciate it if they read this thread and know that their music has gotten me through so much dark times and has inspired me to do my thing, god bless JJFP forever! well without further ado here's the lyrics and btw also check out "war of the mind" by flame who's a gospel rapper that made a song about overcoming mental illness:

 

this song is a dedication

for anyone that has to overcome struggle

know you're not alone

like that michael jackson song

after struggle brighter days come along

remember there's always a purpose

peep my story

 

being 31 i've been able to overcome the pain

and i've seen some dark days

i'm able to roll strong day by day

for 16 years i've been putting out lyrical flames

it's been the war of the minds like the song by flame

i still might not have the fame

or a million people knowing my name

but i have something worth far greater

i'm able to have a peace of mind in the brain

i don't always admit that i've been dealing with

the opposition of my mental illness

in 2007 i wasn't able to sleep much after my staph infection

that left me with my liver and kidneys shutting

it was a near death experience

the emotional toll i then dealt with put a weight on fam and friends

i found out who my real peeps were

when my life was going in a blur

i was starting to question my life's worth

until i ran into a woman who worked

at the st barnabas building

who told me that i'm never alone and we all have a purpose

to this day those words are instilled

even though i don't remember her name i'm thankful

the foundation is built around the right people

along the way and i know i'm being watched by the guardian angels

since my beliefs of life are known as spiritual

i know we all could believe what we want to

but to me god is real or i wouldn't be living

he's helped me along the way of my troubles since

i know the demons are about to be defeated

never give up or give in when you have a dream

 

remaining on the grind

picking up the slack

on the days i lack

remaining on the grind

better moments are coming

time for some better loving

the drama is what i'm overcoming

remaining on the grind

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i added another verse to the song to further explain:

i usually don't relay much of my personal story like this

but in 2016 life has turned where many are hurting

believe me y'all i've dealt with that burden

as a 31 year old millennial representative

i've gained knowledge from past generations

you could say my mental illness is hereditary

cause my papa is living with dementia currently

so i basically hold on to the memories

and i'll pray he'll always be at peace

he's overcome a lot coming to america from haiti

life was different back in the early 1970s

back when my parents were first dating

interracial relationships weren't really in swing

there's more now but there's still discrimination

love should be love no matter what image

since real love is felt in your spirit

on this record i'm coming with a clear vision

i'll never forget the moment in 2003 when i was a high school senior

and i came home feeling all down after a conflict

i was on the phone talking to my friend

i was feeling all upset and ticked

"does anybody care about me?" was what i said

i thought papa was taking a nap

but he woke up and said

"son i care and so does your mama and god, don't ever say those words again"

those words reached my spirit

and from that moment on i didn't question

the love foundation in my life leaves me blessed

and i'm determined to beat all obstacles and my mental illness

[VIsqo]

This is a very nice and deep lyric man