Turntable Posted May 16, 2012 Report Share Posted May 16, 2012 (edited) Look man, I don't know what your situation is exactly, and chances are you and me live in very different worlds, but I can tell you that I myself went through nervous breakdowns and panic attacks and generally wild times about 5 years ago - Based on all this I can tell you that those darks thoughts you might have are thoughts you better get out of your head some way or another, cause its not work it man. Life is wonderful, the world is wonderful, no matter how times may seems sometimes. We all have different reasons to be believe in a good future, for some it's religion and for some like me it's very different reasons, but not matter where they come from - just hold on to them. And never feel bad about getting help if you need it. I know what it feels like when you desperately try to "keep the sanity going" - the trick for me simply was to hang in there. Today I am much more capable of dealing with the things that might have caused panic attacks years ago. Edited May 16, 2012 by Turntable Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bigted Posted May 16, 2012 Report Share Posted May 16, 2012 well i feel more relaxed right now after i watched lion king dvd and went to take a walk on the boardwalk and catching up with one of my friends that i work with at the beach, he's an older guy named frank that's sorta become like a father figure to me lately since my father got sick, we had such a great man to man chat for a whole hour about life in general, god works in mysterious ways, i notice how my mother always seems to have mother figures in her life in older women ever since my grandmother died 11 years ago, and my father had a lot of women in haiti raise him when his mother died when his mother died when he was a baby, you're right life ain't so bad but sometimes there's those dark periods that we go through that tests us, i'm trying to take life as it comes no matter what happens... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bigted Posted May 16, 2012 Report Share Posted May 16, 2012 i wrote a new song just now about how i'm not losing hope in my life, it's called "don't lose hope", i feel more encouraged: Don't Lose Hope 2012 May 16 don't lose hope gotta look beyond the smoke there won't be time to be broke there's ways for us to cope don't lose hope even when we don't believe we can still have dreams the power of god is in teddy you'll want to get with me there's not much to say really except that we'll be able to cope just don't lose hope i see the potential when you can't maybe i'm too much of a dreamer to understand but my vision is towards the ultimate plan finding myself brings on the right command maturity so i could be your man need be the one to provide just can't be bored this time i won't be ignored off this rhyme you'll feel the hunger of my life then you'll wanna be at my side one day you'll be my wife once we make it through these hard times this is why i come hard on the mic i know i don't feel like i'll live a long life even when people see i do things right that's why i'm making the most of my time nothing is a given that's why i'm gonna remain spitting i'm not worried over competition, when i already defeated them like 50 Cent there's been "many men" that've wished for death i choose to uplift and make this time well spent even if i never have kids, the next generation i could still influence like krs i'm the teacha, edutainment through speakers competition ain't my equal, war mentality sequel 2003 was the graduation, 2013 is the meditation the aftermath of 2012 that we're facing the possible last days but i'm confidant that god's children will make it no matter what i'm thankful for everyday i've lived i don't walk around anymore in regrets no moment was wasted, this is the legend in the making a top influence in future lyricism my moves are major through the ways of living teddy's trying to remain at peace until the day i'm resting eternally every night before i go to sleep i'm able to find some sort of peace i feel blessed to have opportunities that my parents could never dream of when they were as young as me we're blessed to have technology through typing away on these keys i'm displaying my lyrical poetry and the love is being felt from overseas i have fans in uk, australia, and germany through my computer i spread love instead of being an internet thug we all have a choice to use our voice i realise i'm never gonna be alone since jesus christ is always in my home i feel uplifted when i express finding vision through religion christ died so i could be living and i stand on that ultimate message so any trouble faced could be ressurected there's miracles found in every direction every time i see papa smile it's a miracle again he's my life long best friend through this dementia he'll be rehabilitated i always tell him french "papa je t'aime" this type of love won't end i'm confidant he'll be home with me and mama again i'm always reminded how i could've died in march 2007 but here i am in 2012 still living at 27 only time will tell how long i'll be alive on earth but i'll always be eternally alive the path has been paved for my soul to be saved god helps write every song i create just like papa taught me how to meditate i stand up to keep up the pace i made a promise to never drink or smoke i'm already at a high without sniffing coke or smoking dope like bbd just show me the way so i could always have hope Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bigted Posted May 23, 2012 Report Share Posted May 23, 2012 "I know some of you out there as my friends might have a hard time believing some of this stuff that I typed but I swear with god as my witness that this is nothing but the truth coming from my heart, I've been reflecting with my mama about events that've happened within the last year between family, friends, people in general, the weather, current events, and we realise that these might be the las...t days, here's my story, god bless y'all for reading: me and my parents saw an image of a cross 11 times at my neighbor's house between June 2, 2011 and July 13, 2011, one time my mother was the only one of us three who saw an image Jesus with red streaks, most of the other times we saw a holy trinity of crosses. I'd write down everytime we saw these crosses in my bible. In between this time period there was a couple of significant events that happened in life, my uncle tommy was told that he could've had colon cancer around his birthday but then he was diagnosed cancer free, we were supposed to have this tropical storm in the jersey shore a month later in august 2011 that was supposed to be the worst in history but it turned out that we all survived it and me and my parents did not evacuate nothing happened to our house or anything around it in town. After this time period we didn't see any more images of crosses until easter of 2012, by that time my father got sick and was put away in a rehabilation center with psychotic dementia, seizures, and we were told that he had lumps in his lung that might've been cancerous, so it's just me and my mother living together now, anyway the reason why i bring easter 2012 is the other neighbor by us had an ...image of a holy trinity on his yard and then a month later my father had tests and we were told that he don't have cancer in his body. The reason why I'm typing this message tonight is I came across this image of a cross once again when i was eating dinner with my mother at our neighbor's house that had the cross there 11 times before during last summer and by the way we also saw the image of a cross on may 10th which was the day that my father had the tests on his lumps at the neurologist. For the past year or so we've been hearing the ocean really strong here in Seaside Heights right from our house and our family lives towards the bay and not the ocean, we've been living here from 18 years and we never heard it that strong before as we did the last year. It also came to my mind as I'm typing this that we had an earthquake here on this east coast around august which was before we were supposed to have that tropical storm, and I came across this article tonight that i posted on my page here after me and my mother had deep conversation at the dinner table about a lot of events of the world and our family during the last year and we were asking each other if the world is going to come to an end of second coming of jesus christ so i decided to do a google search on "second coming of jesus christ" and i came across your article and was inspired by it and all the testimonies on there with the feedback so I had to tell my story too, god bless you all." This is what I typed on the feedback section of this article I found on the second coming of Jesus, I'm definately a believer that something earth changing is about to happen soon, I pray that this will be all for the better for us positive people that follow god: http://www.whatchristianswanttoknow.com/biblical-signs-of-the-second-coming-of-jesus-christ/comment-page-1/#comment-11576 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JumpinJack AJ Posted August 17, 2012 Author Report Share Posted August 17, 2012 My grandmother had a heart attack last night. They said the first eight hours were the most critical and she's passed through that time frame. It's very difficult seeing someone who had a huge part in raising you struggle like that. I'd appreciate anyone who would be willing to say a prayer on the matter. I'd love to see a full recovery. She's 87 and has some health challenges but I'd like to her come out and enjoy more time in a normal, relaxed state. I would hate to have her last hours/days be struggling from something like that. It has certainly put a perspective on how I've been living my crazy busy life and not having time to put into the most IMPORTANT things. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JumpinJack AJ Posted August 17, 2012 Author Report Share Posted August 17, 2012 Well, she passed away about an hour ago. She struggled a bit in the last 20 hours but she didn't suffer. 87 years well-lived. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Admin Hero1 Posted August 18, 2012 Admin Report Share Posted August 18, 2012 Rest In Peace ......... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Da Brakes Posted August 18, 2012 Report Share Posted August 18, 2012 My prayers are with you Adam Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Turntable Posted August 18, 2012 Report Share Posted August 18, 2012 Rest in Peace Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jazzy Julie Posted August 18, 2012 Report Share Posted August 18, 2012 Sorry to hear that AJ, stay strong and my thoughts are with you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bigted Posted August 20, 2012 Report Share Posted August 20, 2012 May Your Grandmother Rest In Peace AJ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JumpinJack AJ Posted December 5, 2012 Author Report Share Posted December 5, 2012 It seems like death is all around. I had to put my dog to sleep unexpectedly on Friday. She was perfectly fine two days before but there were a lot of health issues that were unearthed just over 24 hours later. I was fortunate to spend a good bit of the evening with her but the sting is bad. Invested my heart into her more than anything else in this world. I'm truly in shock, numb, and lost after this. It's amazing how how pets can impact your life. Last night one of my friends from high school passed away. She was my age; married with three kids. She was fighting a health issue that doctors couldn't diagnose. Now her family is grieving her loss. Different paths in life kept us from seeing each other the past 10 years but this, too, stings. There actually quite a lot going on for me right now but I don't want to highjack this thread and make it all about me. I just ask that other prayer souljas lift up my family as we deal with the loss of my dog, Holly, and for the family and friends of Tanya. Thanks in advance. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Admin Hero1 Posted December 5, 2012 Admin Report Share Posted December 5, 2012 Thoughts are with you & the family of your friend AJ. Terrible news. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KevTastic Posted December 5, 2012 Report Share Posted December 5, 2012 Bless you AJ. Hope you're holding up ok Man. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JumpinJack AJ Posted March 5, 2013 Author Report Share Posted March 5, 2013 Here I am again. My family got a new dog back in December. She's 4 years and was previously abused. For three months she's had a good, loving, comfortable life. Last week all of that changed. She had lyme disease, which we didn't know, and while it can sometimes be treated, it got to her kidneys before we knew. In many cases, that is a "death sentence." She's acting very old now and she has no appetite. Her kidneys were only operating at 10% the other day. The future is uncertain, but many signs say she isn't getting better and that we will have to put her to sleep soon. This is obvious heartbreaking, especially to my mom, who has health battles and spends much of every day with her. I'm praying for healing and for a future free from the discomfort this disease could cause. If that's not an option, then we need to know when is the right time to help her get to the next life. This is coming at a very difficult and stressful time for me and it just feels like everything is crashing down (again). Prayers are requested all around. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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