"Sarah".- By Me

[Turntable]

I wrote something for/about Sarah. I`m not realy shure if this is gonna be the definite version of it (It`s quit emotional for me) But I still allready wanted to share.

Whos Sarah? Well, back in Zwisterlland she was my best friend. But it wasnnt just a regular freindship, it was much more. When I left.. It was terrible. One year ago my whole old class came to visit my school over here, but caus allof of kids where beefing we didnt had much time together.. Now I feel terrible about that. Since than, we didnt realy talk anymore.. I allways thoutght about here once in a while tho. But these days, as my life isnt going that well (Familly Bussines) I think about her more. She was/is truely my Potna.

You can read the rest of the story in the song.. Enjoy.

My number one girl, let me tell you about her

For her, I swear, I would have gone anywhere

And I stil would, without a second of doubt

Damn, I wish I could be there

See her again, just to give her a hug

Just like back in the days, ask whats up

But its not like back then, to much things have happend

We got older, lost contact

But with loosing her slowly, I`m loosing a part of me

My soul is breaking into pieces, thats how it feels

Why cant it be like than, side by side

Going through the rain, feeling each others pain

Holding each other tight, if one of us crys

Damn, I just wanna see her again

I want things to be clear,

Wanna know if it ever again, will be like back then

Caus it just fels ****ed up I gotta talk through this pen

When I`m laying In my bed

With the constant thought of her

I keep telling myself, over and over again

Dont know what you got, till it might have found an end

Wherever my life takes me

She stays in my hart

And I dont wanna spend any more time, without..

.. Knowing what she does

How she feels and where she goes

Her beeing happy, thats all I want

More than anything else, I want here to be allright

Caus shes it, one of the most important parts of my life

A strong girl, nothing but love

Nobody can fool her, shes sent from up above

With a smile on her face, she stands up against all struggles

She`s my sun, my hope, my number one girl

I love her deeply, thats how its allways gonna be

But through the last year, its seems like God`s testing me

And I`m afraid, I`m walking away

From what I seem to need, to let my world be free

When I`m laying In my bed

With the constant thought of her

I keep telling myself, over and over again

Dont know what you got, till it might have found an end..

Go pick up the phone, give her a call

Thats what people keep telling me

And I kow theyr right with what theyr telling me

But see, It aint as easy as it seems

I`m afraid if what might be

A whole year we didnt talk a for minute

I`m afraid of the consequences it might bring with it

I dont wanna lose her, You see

Caus shes a part of me, without her I aint complete

She my number one, no matter whats up

She can call me after 10 years & no doubt

In the midle of the night

I would take the train, just to stop her from crying

Would walk through the fire for her

Cry for her, lie for her

Damn, I swear to God I would ****ing die for her

When I`m laying In my bed

With the constand thought of her

I keep telling myself, over and over again

Dont know what you got, till it might have found an end

Dont know what you got till its gone

Thats what I keep telling myself

Got the images of her crying, the day that I left

Like it was yesterday, theyr stuck in my head

From the cradle to the grave, I love her with all my hart

How could I **** it up that bad, even tho she`s a part

A part of me as a human beeing

My feelings never changed,

I`ll allways be there for that girl, without thinking twice

She`s a piece of my soul

& she`ll always be important part of my life

But I dont know how she feels about it today

I should call her to get clear, about the 1 thing I fear

But I`m afraid, I just wana run away

Everytime I think about her, I tend to cry

Thinking about the wonderful moments we shared

And the way I ****ed it up, last time we met

I was influenced, by other peoples fights

Got caught up in that ****

And now I`m afraid of paying the price..

When I`m laying In my bed

With the constant thought of her

I keep telling myself, over and over again

Dont know what you got, till it might have found an end

Edited July 1, 2006 by Turntable

[ash trey]

You have no idea how much I can relate to this song. I had this really special friend (I never really told her how I felt about her but we were really tight), she was Swiss too and she had to leave Cyprus and I kinda crumbled inside when she did. My feelings are excatly the same. Great job but I don't think I have the heart to read it again.

[Turntable]

Thanks for the comment! Its just a sad thing. My friends who I talked to about it all told me that I just should call her up and stuff. I know theyr right, but I`m to afraid of the chance that I found out that the friendship isnt there anymore from her side.

Edited July 1, 2006 by Turntable

[mfuqua23]

Dang Turntable. Thanks for even sharing that. As far as the friendship and if it's there anymore, if you don't call, you'll never know. Plus your not exactly helping the answer of your own question. she may think the friendship is gone from your side as well. You obviously know better than I do what's happened between the two of you, so you need to figure out what's worth it.

[Turntable]

I know. I maybe got to Zwitserland this Summer, so I`ll visit her than I guess. How did you like the lirycs itselfs?

Edited July 1, 2006 by Turntable

[mfuqua23]

I liked em. They were cool and everything, but it's kinda hard to more or less "criticize" something that somebody put feeling into like that. Point blank, you just wrote down how you feel with this one.

[Turntable]

Ok, Thanks. But I could take the critisme, caus it might help me to maybe rewrite some parts if necesarry. It only can get better, right? I appreciate it tho.

Edited July 1, 2006 by Turntable