Dedications To The Memory Of My Nana(Grandmother)

[bigted]

“A Letter To God”

Song Written By Big Ted(Written On Dec. '01)

Intro:

This rhyme's dedicated to everybody

Who's lost somebody that's close to them

'Cause that person passed away

Believe me, you ain't the only one that way

I've experienced that pain

But I feel better when I know because of God

The dead don't feel pain

We do 'cause they've gone away

Feel this

Verse One:

Yo God, I know that you've open up the gates of heaven

To those who believe in you

And your son Jesus who's true

But I don't understand why I feel the way I do

When I 1st woke up yesterday, the sun was bright

But that brightness turned into mildew

'Cause I heard that my nana died

I started to ask myself why

Did this have to happen at this time

I heard my mama start to cry

I told my mama, “It's gonna be alright”

But I felt the same way inside

I couldn't let that show

'Cause I didn't my mama's feelings to hurt more

But as I think 'bout it, God I feel blessed 'cause you have givin' me more

'Cause my papa lost his mom, a few days after he was born

And at 14, his dad passed away

He felt the pain

His aunt had to pull him away

So he wouldn't jump in his dad's grave

He thought that the world ended that day

But he was able to move on, that's why I'm here today

In this songs these are the realest lyrics I will ever say

'Cause there's nothin' bigger to display

Than the will of God's way

That's why I pray

I'll eventually be with the ones I cherished that have gone away

When it's my judgement day

Chorus:

This is a letter to God, A Letter To God

I pray for those who have gone

Please bless their hearts

So that their souls won't depart

I cherish those close to me with all my heart

'Cause of your ways

I ain't afraid

And please make all left on Earth feel no pain

Make all left on Earth feel no pain

Verse Two:

I hear about the people dying on the news

But you ain't feelin' much pain until the death comes close to you

Death is somethin' that's true

What's also true is what we're all God's children

That's what makes God stronger than any buildings

Any lyrical rhymes

Any poetry that we can recite

Any book that we can write

'Cause he helped created our minds

And help create mankind

So he created all our lives

As well as the will to survive

That's why I have to swallow my pride

And learn to strive

'Cause I got a way to survive

God, you know that I don't always go to church

But I always say prayers thanking you for what I've accomplished through my work

Only you know how long I'll live

How many albums I will be able to spit

Who I'll marry and if I'll have any kids

But I cherish

That you have given me a gift

To give to others through my music

'Cause of you, I don't abuse it

You helped me work hard at it

But bigger than that, you help me get through tough times

And turned them back into sunshine

I have to tell you how I feel through my rhyme

Just writing this makes me feel better

'Cause I'm making you a letter

Plus after seeing

What happened in the Twin Tower tragedy

Gave me a better believing

'Bout you givin' all those widowers healing

At a time of grieving

Everythin' happens to prove somethin'

We could have all been dead after that day

But you gave us strength to rally through the tragic way

And it would be great

If all evil could go away

'Cause evil in our lives doesn't solve anythin'

I wonder why we have to die anyway

Maybe it's 'cause of the stress we deal with

Well it depends on what the situation is

It could be the case if it's naturally

Evilness is a major factor of tragedy

When someone dies I have to just get over it

Even though I won't fully get over it

It'll hurt the hardest

When I got 'round the place where the person lived

And they're not there

Or when I would try to give that person a call on the phone

But that person ain't alive anymore

However, thanks to you God

I'm able to fell better when my soul feels shot

And to y'all who feel hurt

Believe that God can heal your hurt

[Repeat Chorus]

Outro:

Not everything in life will be perfect

Y'all gotta learn to live through this

We all experience tough times

You gotta show toughness

Not just through when somebody dies, but life in general

And that's the realest, y'all

Poem Written On December 4th, 2002

I Miss You Nana

Today would have been your birthday

It has always been 3 months before mine

I've been feeling pain more as of late

That I've put more into my rhymes

I know that you're helping me elevate

What's important to my life as I rhyme

Through God, you can understand what I say

Last year I wrote a letter to him

The song I wrote entitled, “A Letter To God”

And it seems like I've been blessed again and again

Even when times get hard

With me feeling stress running in

I feel that my rhymes improved far

Since you died my life's been charged

It was December 16th 2001

The turning point for my heart

I couldn't believe that you were gone

Physically with no more beats of the heart

But I was able to keep my mama strong

For the funeral on December 19th 2001

The family knew that you were at peace

Because your health was failing miserably

Right now you're probably

At a place where you are totally free

One day I hope that we will again meet

Thank you for influencing my poetry

I miss you Nana until the last day on Earth that I breathe!

Edited December 5, 2006 by bigted

[Turntable]

I really liked this. I think you espacly did a great job on the hook's. It's just real.

[mfuqua23]

Both had their personal aspects in detail. You really can't say anything bad about stuff like this. It's just significant to share.

[Da Brakes]

I agree with Fuq! Good job!